Ok, so I am not the greatest at being a consistent blogger,
but Levi did eventually enter the word via c-section on July 8th,
2011. That for me was a big blow to my
pride, but I have given it to God. Life
keeps on getting more and more busy, but I am determined to keep my focus on
what matters: growing with God, raising my
children, loving my husband and finding time to recharge myself (I am still
trying to figure out how to do this). Being the flawed human that I am I realize that in all the
things that matter to me I can greatly improve. I’d like to create some goals for myself in each area.
Goals:
Growing with God:
1) Find a weekly bible/Christian book study . (I’d like to find one on parenting.)
2) Read the bible in the morning.
3) Pray for my children.
4) Read the bible with my children.
Raising my children:
1) Finish the book The Strong Willed Child. Last night I read about 50 pages before bed.
2) Join a mother’s playgroup for support.
Loving my husband:
1) Schedule a once a month date night. Currently we go on a date once every 3-6
months. I recently dropped two of my
three children at Wanna Play for a dentist appointment. I felt guilty about leaving them at this kind
of place, but they were alright. (I
think.) With three very active boys it
is hard to find a babysitter that can handle the amount of energy and will it
takes to keep our boys alive and safe.
On another side note I feel like date night is more for me than for my
husband. I am always saying “we need to go
on a date” and my husband doesn’t seem to desperately need it as much as me.
2) Pray for my husband.
Finding time to recharge myself:
With everything else that is needed this one gets neglected
the most. I’ve always wanted to learn to
knit and sew. Well, my husband bought me
a sewing machine for my birthday last June, but honestly it doesn’t seem fun t
o me to try and figure it out myself. In
fact, it seems very daunting. I prefer
to be around other people, not by myself.
So to make the learning to sew happen I want to:
1) Take an
intro to sewing class. Maybe as my next
Birthday present.
2) Run three
times a week. I struggle with this one
constantly mainly because it only happens if I get up 30 minutes before
everyone else to run on the treadmill. Sounds
easy enough, but most nights Levi wakes up at least once to nurse (Yes, he is
still comfort nursing.) and he still nurses before his bedtime (now down to
20-30 minutes a night.) Well, I need to toughen
up and just get up and run, no matter if I have had a good night’s sleep or
not. My goal was to wean Levi by now
and maybe I will start trying harder or maybe not. It is just so much easier to nurse him when
he wakes at 3 in the morning crying. Many
nights I try to let him cry, but after about 20 minutes I give in and just do what
I need to do to get him to sleep.
3) Spend time with friends and make new ones. I hardly ever do this, but when I do it makes
me immensely happy for weeks on end.
Considering how much happiness this brings me I need to work on this one
more, but I am not sure exactly how. I
have even been dorky enough to google “how to make friends,” because some days
I just wish that I had a friend that I could call and talk to about normal
everyday things that I need someone’s input on.
Not to sound completely pathetic.
I do have some friends. I just
wish that I felt more a part of a community or had someone besides my mom to
call and talk about personal issues.
4) Learn to knit. It is on the list, but I think that I will focus on sewing first. I kinda need to be a nice wife and at least open the sewing machine box from my birthday over 6 months ago.
